Go Fish!

Last night while I was writing my post, I noticed that my posts lately were quite "on the dot," and didn't have much depth. I am thinking of ways to make it more personal, but for now, let me just continue writing the way I write the past few days.

Nicolasa of {My}Adventure linking up my entry to her meme in her Facebook page. Thanks, Nicolasa!
Reading more blogs about people's weight loss journeys and feeling a breathe of fresh air just by reading their stories.
Putting new sticks to help hold my tomato plants.

Today, I feel a bit sad that I didn't join Nuffnang's movie event. One of the things I want to do before I die (aka My Bucket List) is to attend a movie premiere. However, I didn't know why I didn't do anything, and because my brother wrote a post, he was part of the invitees. Every selected bloggers had two tickets, and brother chose to tag sister along.

*bangs head*

BUT... I somehow feel okay that I didn't join because if I did, it would mean mom will be left alone in the house - something I didn't want. It felt much better cooking dinner for the both of us and it felt nice knowing we were using computers at the same time - she used my net book, I was using the old desktop (playing the Sims 2). Also, receiving a message from brother telling me of foods served at the event made me a bit thankful that I didn't come because I am now developing a fear in eating foods. Anyway, I know being a food blogger I'd still attend food events and eat foods, but I need to learn how to control. I guess my fear is developing because I am cutting back the foods I eat at home and I still haven't really tested myself eating out.

Today's Bible readings centers on "reaping what you sow," and a very timely message for me. Each day, I admit I struggle a bit trying to lose weight, and at times I feel like giving up and just be obese all my life, but... a tree is not grown overnight, and wheat is not harvested overnight. Time is part of all successes, as well as nurturing and continued care.

I agree with the sharing in the book, "We need to spend, to die within ourselves, to sacrifice." If we want something, we must be determined. God's words today really helped boost my confidence to strive harder. In time, I know I'd reach my dream weight.

Today's Reflection:

Will the Father honor you when you reach the gates of heaven?

Of course I do hope so... but I guess I can't tell if He will honor me if I'd meet Him today. I am not really that bad of a person, and I know I am taking the steps towards positive change, but I can also tell that at the moment I still am not prepared. Today's gospel reading goes, "Whoever serves me must follow me, and where I am, there also will my servant be." It is just now that I started reading the Bible, and I know that is not yet enough. As for the "service," I feel really terrible that I miss going to church, and I am now inactive in the church org I joined, so yes, am not yet prepared. Also, I admit I still do some of my "favorite sins," but I am slowly giving it up one by one, so I do hope I still have enough time... I really do want the Father to honor me when I meet Him.

FOOD LOG

Breakfast - 5 tablespoons fried rice (mixed with chopped hotdogs and scrambled egg)
Lunch - 1 cup rice, 1 medium-size steamed tilapia, 1 cut-up carrot, some cabbage - also steamed
Afternoon Snack - 1 cup guinataan halo-halo
Dinner - 1 cup rice, 1 small steamed tilapia, 1 very small fish (bisugo - sinigang), 1 banana

I'd admit I hated the taste of the carrots - I don't like eating cooked carrots (I prefer it juiced), but I need to insert vegetables in my diet, so I have to eat it. And... fish for lunch and dinner? Yey.

EXERCISES

Hip Hop Abs (Cardio) - morning
1 Yoga Pose - 2 minutes
Hip Hop Abs (Ab Sculpt) - afternoon

Funny thing to share ... I never had any exercise between March and July this year - which was why I had a difficult time trekking to Mt. Pinatubo in early June. When I got back exercising this month, I sure complained a bit about muscle aches, but all were tolerable and the pain was something that went away after a few minutes. This morning, I tried watching this Yoga Flex video and tried doing one pose and held it for about two minutes, like what the instructor did in the video. It was okay enough, yes... but after an hour, I felt my legs aching - as if I just started exercising for the first time. The tension was still there, but of course, I still did my exercise in the afternoon, and I am thankful about it. Even if my siblings went out and I was left alone for a while, I still made myself do my exercises, something I am so thankful about.