Day 5 - Something you HOPE TO DO in your life

Even when we were kids, we have already hopes and dreams. Whether it was patterned after our own heroes, or something we see off the television, we already have developed and set some goals for us to strive on. However, sometimes life could be harsh and unfair. Either that, or as we grow old, we just realized the things we hoped for weren't easy to reach, or we just completely fell out of love in it, and pursued something else.

I, of course, was no exception. When I was a kid, I hoped to become a nurse - because my aunt is one. I guess childhood dreams are built upon that - seeing people close to us doing something wonderful, and we could just hope to be like them, too. I didn't pursue that because I realized the pressures being a nurse, and I seriously didn't think I could insert a needle in someone else's body. I have so many hopes, and I love to day dream. Even now, I still have so many hopes that I wanted to come true.

I hope to...


... become a travel show host. In elementary, my most favorite show was "5 and Up," a magazine show featuring kids 5 - 12 years old as hosts. They tackle many different topics, but one of the things that amazed me the most was how they could go to different places, tasting foods, and presenting it to the world. Now I know that is quite impossible to happen because my looks aren't made for television, but I still hope to become a travel show host, and I think in some ways I am doing that - through my travel blog, Where My Feet Took Me.

... become a well known (and a better) blogger. Not in a rock star status, though. Just enough for me to get lotsa invites to different blog events, and just enough to get a lot of visitors. Let's be honest, most of us blog because we want to send a message across. I still have to figure it out how to become a better "speaker," and someday I hope to become as well known as the local bloggers Ivan Henares, Enrico Dee, Johanna de Larrazabal - Blanco, and Market Man.

... become a better photographer. I don't mean to look down on my "partner-in-life" (aka my point and shoot camera), but at times I feel bad that I can't join this, or do that, because I know what my camera's limitations are. I sometimes wish DSLRs are as cheap as candies, so I can buy one now, and take up lessons, and practice. I don't hope to become a professional-professional (hello, major major!), but I do hope to cover life events of maybe my friends, or neighbors, I hope to cover events, and I do hope I could take pictures great enough to grace the covers of magazines and newspapers.

... become a wife and a mother. This has got to be the biggest hope I could ever have, because I always feel hoping to become an astronaut was much easier because in order for me to pursue it, I can just go to NASA. I know, I am blowing things out of proportion, but what I wanted to say was, there's a definite road people must take in order to achieve goals like becoming an astronaut (or a nurse, pop star, etc). Whereas becoming a wife and a mother, fate decides that... and I really do hope fate would be really nice to me. I am now 30, and I still am single. Sigh...

... become a bookworm. It was just too bad I wasn't able to develop the love of reading books. I do hope I can develop it, because I really feel jealous of people talking about different books. It's just so sad that books are way too expensive! I hope they can lower prices of books so I can enjoy it, too.

... become a good writer. Yes, I admit my grammar sucks.

... learn how to open up. I still feel like I am a turtle at times.

... learn how to trust. I have been bullied a lot, and my emotions have been toyed gazillion of times (okay, am exaggerating). The thing is, these blows made me a bit apprehensive in giving my trust, because part of my mind thinks the person is up for some games. At times my instincts were correct, at times they weren't, and yes, it has caused me to lose would be great friends.

... be firm. Have I told I am like a turtle? Oh well, I am just so afraid to speak my mind! I also don't like to see myself in compromising situations because I don't know how to handle or stand by my words. This is why I love Carlos Celdran's guts. I still feel what he did - interrupting a mass - was disrespectful, but I admired his courage.

... inspire people. In every way possible.

I could go on and on about the things I hope to do, but that would be like endless. :) Actually, I do have my own Bucket List, that has a few of the things I hope to do before I die. Check it out, too, if you have the time.

Hopes are made for us to have something to set our eyes on as we go through life. Like what I have said, sometimes these hopes are pursued, and sometimes we just sell out. Hoping for something gives us light and encouragement, and it can also give us frustration and self doubt. To close this, I just thought of sharing something our parish's priest said in one of his homilies, "God didn't didn't give us everything to enjoy life, but He gave us life to enjoy everything." Whether our hopes and our dreams come true or not, just enjoy life... there's a purpose to everything.

*** Jenn ***